Ang hirap pala kapag nagfall out kana sa isang taong dati mong mahal lalo na kung hindi nya matanggap na hindi na sya ang taong gusto mong makasama habambuhay. Ayoko namang makisama na awa na lang ang nararamdaman ko sa kanya, yun okey sa kanya but for me it's not. Malaki na ang naisacrifice ko for this relationship and I'm totally burned out. I'm not saying that it's his fault alone but I can proved that I did my part. I never looked for another guy to fullfill his deficiency as a husband and a father but he did. I ignore that and accepted him for so many times. Ang hirap lang kapag napagod ka na and you have found someone that you think can help you rest and move on, ikaw yung lalabas na masama and lahat ng masasakit na salita na alam nila, sasabihin nila to make them feel satisfied that they have taken their revenged.

I'm sad coz the main person na affected sa situation ko are my kids, I love them, they are my life at kahit mamatay ako ngayon I will still love them but I'm just hoping na nasabi ko at nagawa ko na lahat for them. As a mother, I really wanted to make them grow in a secure and good family but what else can I do?I have reached the boundary of being a martir for my husband. All I wanted to do right now is to end up this mess and move on to another chapter of my life.

I hope that despite of a being hard-headed child, God will still listen to me and help me push to do what is right, to help me think what has to be done and to make decisions that can lead me to the right path of a new life...